It's finally the long-anticipated end of the week. The sleeping problem that i've been experiencing has not improved at all. So basically, i've been trying to get through each and every day with just at most 3 to 4 hours of sleep daily? It isn't fun at all. It began in the september holidays and has yet to cease. I need my sleep>.< Promos are halfway through, with just two more subjects to go: math and physics. I'm sort of enjoying myself, i guess. It feels quite nice going to school just to take exams and returning to mug like there's no tomorrow. At the very least, there's no tutorials to do and no lectures to attend. To add on, the atmosphere in the hall is just great. Listening to the sounds of scribbling, watching everyone giving their all out in the test, it really reminds me of the days of o levels. Speaking of o levels, i recently had a sudden interest to read my blog archives which dated all the way back to the year 2004. I realised how fast time has passed(which means my blog is worth 4 years of memories). Reading through my previous posts, it relieves all the memories i have locked in my mind: both the sad and the happy ones. The first two years of posts showed me how childish and niave i was. I got irritated at myself when i read the content, and the language was pissing me off as well. I couldn't spot a single complete sentence. One good thing about reading your own blog is that you get a whole new perspective of yourself. That's what i achieved today. I have this sudden impulse now to re-blog all the important events in past 4 years:

2004-5


Regardless how happy my posts in the years 2004-05 seem to be, i can't recollect any happy memories from those two years. I think one major problem i face during my first two years in RV was the change of environment and people. Thinking back, i feel that i was too cooped in my own world and expected things to be the same as before. to sum up, i just didn't want to grow up. Reading the posts now, i just have a very strong impulse to tell the 13-14 year old me : just mature, will you-.- nevertheless, i met a small group of pretty good friends whom regretfully i did not keep in much contact with.

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2006

We come to the year of 2006, the year when things started picking up. We've come to a brand new class with new classmates. I remember telling myself that i need to be more enthusiastic and i was, during the orientation. However i wasn't much extrovert so to some extent, i didn't like too much attention on me. Hence time passes and i started retreating back into my shell once again after the orientation. Luckily for me, i had huimin as my sitting partner, norine, jade, emily and thomas around me. The sum of them equals to fun and laughter. I recall sharing inside jokes with them and laughing at thomas's contagious laughter. When the time came for us to change our seats, huimin and i even talked about sitting together once again but some reason that i can't remember, we didn't. But i sat with enqi then! Anyway, things weren't much the same anymore. And here comes another story where enqi and i spent our days teasing and bullying each other, biting( this applies for enqi), sleeping and attempting to stay awake in lessons. At times when i had my bad days, enqi had to suffer my temper. Up till this day, i still feel very sorry for her. But i'm really glad i got to know her.(=

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2007

It's the last year of my secondary life. Basically besides the syf, i've morphed into an average student who sleeps in class, do last minute mugging, and hang out with friends. During the last week before the prelims, i was the most studious i've ever been since i entered RV. I scored pretty ok, clinching my fist L1R5<10 child=""> self confidence and leadership skills. No kidding, i was quite a leader in the past. It's quite sad actually. But i know they are gradually returning to me, and i'm sure someday, i'll get them back.

This post should be one of the longest i've done so far. Perhaps it was because i was emo-ing initially( which explains the emo parts at the front) and i felt a myriad of different feelings after reading the blog posts. Blasting emo music to block out stuff also contributed to my emo-ness, and i was feeling vexed. Doing long posts of reflections once in a while is great, really helps alot.

Things i've learnt today:
1. Blasting emo music when you are already emo worsen matters.
2. Blogging can be good too.


I intend to do a long post dedicated to dance and rv dancers(maybe) since it is a major part of my life.=))