Surprisingly, dance has actually played a major part in my life.. Never in the first 12 years of my life have i ever thought that one day, i can actually dance. Lol. It's this kind of stuff that happens in life which really surprises and stuns us. I was quite a huge fan of choir when i was primary 2 and being a choir member was my dream. Hence I became and had always been a member of the school choir in primary school, never good at sports nor anything got to do with performance. I was an introvert T_T.


My very first dance instructor was 余老师 who taught us in secondary 1. He was very strict, and majored in chinese dance. I learnt my first 兰花指, 抛头转, 乌龙脚注( i have no idea if these are the right characters), 劈腿, 下后腰 and many more from him. I used to say that dance practices are torture, i take back my words now. They were indeed very mentally and physically tiring yet satisfying. We spent one year with him and he left due to his busy schedule. By then the dance mates whom i hanged out more with were those from my class.

our very own by rv dancers'04.

Despite that, i was still quite reserved and didn't talk much during trainings. Well it changed when we were informed that we need to learn 'Anggun' with us as the lead dancers this time for an NUS performance! We, especially our batch of dancers learnt the whole dance purely on our own with the aid of the syf video and our memory. The numerous dance sessions bonded us very quickly and soon we became close friends, nearing that of a family, though it was more of among the girls. Under the influence of fellow dance mates, especially Dawn ( lol yes dawn, it's you) who is super lame, i became lamer each passing day. But it's a good thing in fact, it made me more sociable and happier.=)

Things got even better with the dance exchange trip to Shanghai-Suzhou. We learnt more dances, hung out with each other more often. One great thing the boosted our relationship was our commone interest in dance. We had so much fun during the trip. And i know that many of us still miss the trip even though it happened 2 years ago.

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Anggun in Suzhou

Wanglao and the girls

It's finally the long-anticipated end of the week. The sleeping problem that i've been experiencing has not improved at all. So basically, i've been trying to get through each and every day with just at most 3 to 4 hours of sleep daily? It isn't fun at all. It began in the september holidays and has yet to cease. I need my sleep>.< Promos are halfway through, with just two more subjects to go: math and physics. I'm sort of enjoying myself, i guess. It feels quite nice going to school just to take exams and returning to mug like there's no tomorrow. At the very least, there's no tutorials to do and no lectures to attend. To add on, the atmosphere in the hall is just great. Listening to the sounds of scribbling, watching everyone giving their all out in the test, it really reminds me of the days of o levels. Speaking of o levels, i recently had a sudden interest to read my blog archives which dated all the way back to the year 2004. I realised how fast time has passed(which means my blog is worth 4 years of memories). Reading through my previous posts, it relieves all the memories i have locked in my mind: both the sad and the happy ones. The first two years of posts showed me how childish and niave i was. I got irritated at myself when i read the content, and the language was pissing me off as well. I couldn't spot a single complete sentence. One good thing about reading your own blog is that you get a whole new perspective of yourself. That's what i achieved today. I have this sudden impulse now to re-blog all the important events in past 4 years:

2004-5


Regardless how happy my posts in the years 2004-05 seem to be, i can't recollect any happy memories from those two years. I think one major problem i face during my first two years in RV was the change of environment and people. Thinking back, i feel that i was too cooped in my own world and expected things to be the same as before. to sum up, i just didn't want to grow up. Reading the posts now, i just have a very strong impulse to tell the 13-14 year old me : just mature, will you-.- nevertheless, i met a small group of pretty good friends whom regretfully i did not keep in much contact with.

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2006

We come to the year of 2006, the year when things started picking up. We've come to a brand new class with new classmates. I remember telling myself that i need to be more enthusiastic and i was, during the orientation. However i wasn't much extrovert so to some extent, i didn't like too much attention on me. Hence time passes and i started retreating back into my shell once again after the orientation. Luckily for me, i had huimin as my sitting partner, norine, jade, emily and thomas around me. The sum of them equals to fun and laughter. I recall sharing inside jokes with them and laughing at thomas's contagious laughter. When the time came for us to change our seats, huimin and i even talked about sitting together once again but some reason that i can't remember, we didn't. But i sat with enqi then! Anyway, things weren't much the same anymore. And here comes another story where enqi and i spent our days teasing and bullying each other, biting( this applies for enqi), sleeping and attempting to stay awake in lessons. At times when i had my bad days, enqi had to suffer my temper. Up till this day, i still feel very sorry for her. But i'm really glad i got to know her.(=

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2007

It's the last year of my secondary life. Basically besides the syf, i've morphed into an average student who sleeps in class, do last minute mugging, and hang out with friends. During the last week before the prelims, i was the most studious i've ever been since i entered RV. I scored pretty ok, clinching my fist L1R5<10 child=""> self confidence and leadership skills. No kidding, i was quite a leader in the past. It's quite sad actually. But i know they are gradually returning to me, and i'm sure someday, i'll get them back.

This post should be one of the longest i've done so far. Perhaps it was because i was emo-ing initially( which explains the emo parts at the front) and i felt a myriad of different feelings after reading the blog posts. Blasting emo music to block out stuff also contributed to my emo-ness, and i was feeling vexed. Doing long posts of reflections once in a while is great, really helps alot.

Things i've learnt today:
1. Blasting emo music when you are already emo worsen matters.
2. Blogging can be good too.


I intend to do a long post dedicated to dance and rv dancers(maybe) since it is a major part of my life.=))

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you.

It's not lame doing quizzes on the blog, i was just bored >.<

Anyway i just spent the rest of my friday watching videos of So You Think You Can Dance. Good choreographers and good dancers. I totally adore twitch and kherington, they make a great dance pair. Twitch and katee has great chemistry as well, you can really see the great friendship they have between themselves. Both of them are funny and adorable. I totally adore choreographies by napoleon and tabitha, and mia michaels. Very great choreographies with lots of emotion and story in them. Okay i'm sounding like a wilfred, who's obsessed with dance, which i'm not. Definitely not to that extent at least. It's just a spur of interest and a break from academics.

FOUR MORE DAYS TO PROMOS = FOUR MORE DAYS TO DOOM. I'm supposed to be studying very hard now but couldn't stop myself from using the computer. Everyone's mugging real hard, except for me.T_T I can't wait for promos to start and end.

Insomnia is hitting me hard. I haven't been able to sleep well for this whole week. How did i manage to survive till the end of the week, i have no idea. I just lay wide awake every night in my bed for hours, sleep for that few hours, wake up, go to school and doze off in the late afternoon and the same thing repeats everyday. It doesn't help matters that i've been having headaches everyday even before i step into the school campus and the lack of appetite. Woo. Evidence of stress? Subconciously maybe.

I can't do much now but to relax..and work hard for promos...?

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Sigh can anyone tell me why the shit am i online? I so shouldn't be here. I'm supposed to be mugging for promos!>.<

This week has been quite a eventful one. With all the mugging and the bugging from the ABC a.k.a Ah Bu Club.( lol thank sijie for this acronym) Yup, this club was set up on the 16th September 2008, tuesday. They consist of people who are so very concerned about me. Ironically, the members are all guys, four in fact. Haha so now i have four ah bu's.

And i'm playing street netball for festival of sports. We,( me, kelly,yichan, melissa) thus played netball for pe on tues. We practised ball passing and goal shooting. I think i'm getting the hang of the shooting. I suspect the pe teacher thinks that i'm from some sports team since she asked " what sport do you play?" LOL sometimes you just hide the talent.=D

Geez....i'm still experiencing the pain today. Didn't go to school because of it yesterday and i actually thought i will subside by today, BUT.....=(

I really need a break so decided to do another quiz today=)

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now.
1. I miss you soooo much!!
2. Work hard! I'm sure you can do it=)
3. Relax, don't give yourself too much stress.
4. You're pissing me off, unfortunately=(
5. I'm really glad i got to know you=D
6. Cheer up!
7. Lol your are getting crazier each day.
8. Geez have more confidence in yourself.
9. We should meet up sometime.
10. Thank you.:)

NINE things about yourself.
1. I'm a girl.
2. I'm black bean.
3. I'm known to have a black face. -.-
4. I like to dance=)
5. I'm very innocent. haha
6. I'm from 08S6E.
7. I like freedom.
8. A doctor is my future job.
9. I value all kinds of relationships. (eg. friendships, family relations)

EIGHT ways to win my heart
1. Caring
2. Funny
3. Like me for who i am.
4. Fun
5. Knows when to give me my own personal time.
6. Understanding
7. Outgoing
8. Hygienic! (lol)

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot
1. Things i want to do in future.
2. Friendships
3. My academic results
4. Dance
5. Recent conversations and incidents.
6. My life
7.Purely imagining things that can never happen.

SIX things I wished I never did
1. Being anti-social
2. Setting the wrong impression for some people.
3. Not keeping in contact with friends in the past.
4. Saying stupid stuff at times.
5. Not studying for blocks.
6. Sleeping in lessons.

FIVE turn-offs.
1. People who are too clingy.
2. Insects.
3. Children
4. Expectations
5. Changes.

FOUR turn-ons
1. Fun
2. Sleep
3. Thrill
4. Excitement

THREE words to sum up my life
1. It's
2. My
3. Life.

TWO things I won't die til I've done
1. Making sure that my family will be fine after i die.
2. Enjoyed myself.

ONE last confession
I'm doomed for promos.T_T

I found this quiz from shaoying's blog. I have no idea what quiz it is but since i'm bored, i shall do it=)

Random
1. Are you currently mad at someone: Yup
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper: ...
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone: yes, it happened when i was p3 i guess.
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry: nope, defintely not.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream: if i'm really mad, shout definitely. but i've never reached that intensity yet.

Misc.
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party: yup, this year. though it's not really a party.=D
2. Are you easily excited: not really.
3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about: start of promos! lol my friends say i'm sick.=(
4. Which of your friends is most excitable: ..?
5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought: OMG.
6. If you could have anything right now, what would it be: my sis to do well for her psle=)

Personal Questions

1. Name: Ningxin
2. Do you like your name: haha ya i guess so?
3. Whats your main goal in life: bring happiness to everyone! ( haha i know i'm noble=P)
4. Do you want to have children: err.....
5. How do you want to die: happily=)

Opinions

1. Sex before marriage: hmmm..
2. Gay Marriage: i find it alright=)
3. Lowering the drinking age: no but teens just drink anyway.
4. Abortion: depends on the situations
5. Recycling: yup. the world's coming to an end if we don't.

Dreams

1. What was your latest dream: a nightmare.
2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most: i don't remember.
3. Have any of your (sleeping) dreams come true: no
4. Do you usually remember your dreams: most of the times.
5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had: er crabs in the toilet? lol
7. Where were you when 9/11 happened: i don't. i only found out from my friend the next day.=(
8. Do you consider yourself kind: yes!!
9. If you would get a tattoo, what part of your body would you get it on: my belly or my back near the shoulders=)
10. If you could be fluent in any other language,what would it be: french=)
11. Do you know your neighbours: not really.
12. What do you consider a vacation: going overseas and enjoying myself
13. Do you follow your horoscope: not obsessed with it. for entertainment, ya.
14. Would you move for the person you loved: if moving means something like migration, no. i value my family more.
15. Do you believe that opposites attract: yes.
16. Dream job: doctor<3 or maybe the ceo of some huge company. lol
17. Real job: doctor?
18. Favorite channel: don't really have one now.
19. Have you ever attempted suicide: nope.
20. Favorite place to go on weekends: home=)
21. Showers or Baths: either is fine.
22. Do you paint your nails: no. i can't do them nicely=(
23. Do you trust people easily: not really.
24. Do you keep a handwritten journal: no.
25. Where would you rather be right now: here=)
26. Who makes you feel guilty: the people i let down.
27. Heavy or light sleep: depends.
28. Are you paranoid: not very.
29. Are you impatient: increasingly, unfortunately.
30. What's your life motto: i don't really have an idea now.

Everything started out bad yesterday, seriously. I was in a crappy mood from the morning, given that i couldn't sleep the night before, had to wake up early and ate my breakfast only at 3 to 4pm. It wasn't alot anyway. Then i had to rush off to school for chi soc.

Met a senior on the way to school. The whole incident can be described by one word: awkward. Really had nothing to say to him. What more, he asked the classic question " How's school?". What was i supposed to say..? So i gave the classic answer " Okay". Lol and it marked the end of our conversation.

Chi soc was half way through the preparations. I helped out a bit and went on the playing the games, namely the throwing of darts. Apparently i was very zai and the game masters refused to let me continue my massacre of balloons. >.<>dance session. We were very aa. VERY. And we daoed dance session. I pity the councillors.=(

I was starving throughout the whole night and had gastric later into the night. And my bad mood persisted throughout the whole day and night. Yuenying said i look very pissed off, irritated and most of all scary. She was right. Well i slept on my whole bus journey back home and enjoyed my sumptuous dinner of instant noodles at 1am in the morning. What a great day.

I'm not really in a "blog long post" mood today. I just want to say it's a small world after all. ._.

Having a sister in primary school has its advantages at times. It allows me to understand what the hell goes on in the lives of primary school kids today. And i can tell you it sucks and it's totally different from what we used to experience.

First thing first, i pity all children currently studying in primary schools and their parents too. Although i pity all children and teenagers under our education system, but at least, we got to enjoy our primary school lives. If you could just spare some of you time and do some research on the primary school syllabus, you would definitely be glad that you have gone past that age. Their syllabus is no longer as easy as ours. Full marks ain't as easy to score as that in the past. Remember the days when A and A* are taken for granted? You don't get them anymore.
Students are no longer just the victims of this realistic, competitive and increasingly difficult education system. I know parents who suffer from depression just because their kids do not do as well as others. What else can we do? When graduates with university certificates are everywhere. Even now, certificate of graduation with honours are common. I can only say the later you are borned into this world, the more competitive you have to be. Be smart or else...=(

Secondly, primary school kids are sick, sick and sick! You will not want to know the content of their conversations. Sick little brats.

Thirdly, do not be surprised if primary school kids know more things than you. Do not be surprised that they have interviews with complete strangers over skype just to be a DJ on habbo. Do not be surprised that they listen to One Republic, Natasha Bedingfield or Leona Lewis and not Hi-5. Do not be surprised if they can recognise the singer just by listening to songs played on 98.7 fm. Do not be surprised they know more vulgarities than you. Do not be surprised when their music playlists contain songs of greater variety than you. No matter what, they are full of things that you never know about them.>.<

Ningxin is scared.
Ningxin is stressed.
Ningxin thinks homo sapiens are scary.

WHY?

Because of wilfred. Oh my f-ing god. Let's quote from his blog:

"Within 3 days, this is how much I have revised:
Math - 5 topics
Econs - 8 topics
Chem - 2 topics

I plan to go much faster for the next few days, because I need to make up for lost time on Saturday. I haven't started at all for Geog, so I would need to do so tomorrow. At this rate, I think I an finish revising for most of my subjects before next Wednesday, then I can focus on doing past year papers for Chem and Math, while practise writing essays for Econs. Yay! "

Thanks man, i feel so accomplished and relaxed after reading that, NOT. I feel like hitting my head with a carrot, throw myself with marshmallows, er...stab myself with a cotton bud..well you get it. ARGH..

i have word to describe my promos :
screwed

one word to describe the start of promos:
doom.

one emotion to show currently:
T_T

all in all, three words to sum up everything:

I'M SO DEAD!

( sorry wilfred, no offence. but good job for you.=D)

We have come to the second day of the september holiday week a.k.a tuesday. All i can say is that i've been so unproductive in mugging for promos since the start of the september holidays. I feel so pathetic. And people have been going to school for consultations, mugging sessions. I'm sure there are people who are nearly done with their revision. Trust me, i know people like them. =( Which even accentuates my patheticalness. T_T

I think the technology and my family are arch enemies, especially the computers. My desktop crashed and there's a vertical line across the LCD screen of my other one. Geez... BUT LUCKILY, the computer technician came and fixed my desktop.Thus here i am, happily blogging away.:) Unfortunately, my other one has to be sent for maintenance. It'll be weeks before i see it again.

I've been blogging a lot lately, partly because i'm bored, also because i've found joy in blogging. Blogging allows me to vent, to informally record what goes on in my life. Sometimes i take the time and pleasure to read through my past entries. And you will realise how much we have grown emotionally.

The fact that we are nearing promos alerted me about the upcoming end of j1. How fast time has passed. It seems only yesterday that i sat for my o levels, retrieved my results, chose my junior college, attended orientation and got to know this great bunch of friends. All of a sudden, i just don't feel like growing up anymore. I rather live in this sheltered life, with no need to worry about making ends meet, just results. Where we go the school everyday, with a life filled with fun and laughter. Where we can sit down or stone or share our thoughts and feelings. Like what i always said, stone-ing is a form of luxury. But I guess there's always a need for the parting of ways, like it or not.

Blog hopping has recently become my habit ( i guess i can call it that) too. It's quite fun to read blogs of friends or even strangers, having a bit of insight to what goes on in their lives. To my dismay, few of my friends post frequently.:(

Some thing that have caught my attention through my blog hopping is that getting married and have kids is the goal of many girls. Surprisingly, that has never come across my mind as an ambition or a dream. Getting married has never been the top of my list entitled : "the things i want to do when i grow up". Having kids certainly isn't. Children ain't my favourite, definitely. But i guess, mentality changes over time. Maybe, i'll think differently few years down the road?

My friends keep telling me to mug. Hmm..maybe i should really start sitting down and study. But the question is: am i determined enough?

I'm so going to grow very very super duper fat...! I'm binge-ing everyday with absolutely no exercise at all! Argh...I'll be complaining how fat i am and how i need exercise while my hands keep reaching out for more food. I'm hopeless.

Lol i had no idea that my sister recently formed a brotherhood with two guys from her primary school class. Damn cool. My mum was stunned. She couldn't believe that her once so feminine daughter with long beautiful hair and wore frilly dresses turned out this way - treated as a guy. Lol. I think it's great lor. And this links to the question of the day:

Is it better to be more feminine or more man as a girl? Which one do guys prefer actually. Personally, i would prefer to be more "guyish" and outgoing than standing at the side whining how violent the game is or how it will spoil the fingernails shit. =D

But when i say i'm more man, my friends laughed at me! So am i'm actually that feminine?

Today was an eventful day! My family and i went on a eating spree at vivo. We went to food republic, ordered

1. Lots of dimsum.
2. Korean bibimbap
3. Minced meat noodles
4. 3 soya milk

Come to think of it, it really isn't a lot.=( but it was damn freaking expensive.=((

After that we went to take a look at some anime fair at skypark. We had a great laugh at this girl dressed up as a chick? ( I have no idea how it links to anime.) She couldn't see a thing with her chick head, so she had her friends lead her around by holding on to her hands. I saw naruto, bleach. I like their hair>.<

Then we headed off to shop around. It was quite boring actually. I was forbidden to buy anymore cargo pants....=(

Oh ya then comes the wine exhibit. I had a fair share of trying out all the red and white wine. Surprisingly, no one stopped me from drinking. Consequence : a bad headache.

My sister and i went to grab more food.

1. Yam pie
2. Lime juice
3. eclair puff

On our way home, we stopped by to visit the sensei at bukit panjang to take a look at my injured finger. How pathetic, it's just a finger! So, basically now, my finger is wrapped,. It's damn swollen now. My mum says it looks like a banana. I think it looks wrong.>.<

Yup, and i slept the rest of my day away.

I was reminded of cheesy and funny pick up lines so i went to search for them again. Here's one:

A boy gives a girl 12 roses. 11 real, 1 fake and he says to her " I will stop loving you when all the roses die"

i think it's quite sweet.=)