I don't know why but i'm in a reflective mood now.
Huang cheng's making me like this for some time, especially as we're nearing bump in.
Just brings back memories of huang cheng 2008.

Like what has been happening for past saturdays, today was fully dedicated to huang cheng again. Zong cai 1. I must say it was indeed quite disappointing. Standing at the backstage, watching the actors act. As a J2 and in the exco as well, i guess it affects me more than some. All our hard work and planning for the past nearly one year, the result really relies on the J1s. I don't remember how it was like last year, maybe it's the same situation, maybe it's worse but it doesn't matter now. What matters most now is that i believe we can do it! (: Yup i strongly believe these last 5 days will make a GRREEAATTTT difference!

Hmm i think what caused me to be so reflective now would be the seniors.

Firstly, it really brought back the feeling of huang cheng 08 when we were all noob J1s.(not that we're very pro now). I just felt a sense of security when they spoke. haha
Secondly, though they didn't really speak much, but the speech/lecture/reprimand was spot on. The sense of urgency and everything, we really don't have it la. I've been quite stressed during the show, running up and down, doing time check but still it felt very different from last year. It feels like no one understands the need to be uptight and urgent in everything we do backstage? And for one, we don't sleep when we're scolded. Maybe we aren't that fierce this year and that's why. However somehow, no matter how much we say, the message just doesn't seem to get through? I've no idea why. I know many of us are at our wits' end and nothing seems to work. Hence the many outbursts, break downs, sighing everyday, mood swings. Yes we are that stressed out. >.<
Sad things aside,
"look around you, you might never see your friends anymore after huang cheng's over"
"this is the last time all of you will work together for a production"
These words caused me to feel a myriad of emotions. Somehow it described what i've been feeling for some time. The loss i predict i'll feel after huang cheng's over. Despite some unhappiness or unpleasant moments during the huang cheng preparation, i had fun. I know i'll miss the days we spent having discussions, putting our brains together to come up with concepts, slacking at b101, taking random photos, niao-ing people, doing retarded stuff, being lame etc. Huang cheng has also got me to know many great people
hell i'll even miss the long hours of meetings

i don't know what will happen on the last show on 26th may
maybe i might just flop onto the floor and start crying or just stone as usual
whatever it is, i know i'll definitely experience phd this year, cos i did last year and it's really very depressing(thus the name phd)
maybe i'll consider hanging out at b101 for some time after huangcheng's over. :D

up till this very minute, we still have 13 more days to go. let's jiayou bah and enjoy ourselves tremendously:DDD